okay. i've just logged on to my xanga account after more than a year and i can honestly say that i cannot recognize the person that posted those stupid posts a year ago. what was i thinking?

i'm not sure. i guess i was just very confused about who i was and tried to pass myself off as someone else. i never really meant any of what i wrote, but felt compelled to write it in order to justify for myself that i have some structure.  unfortunately, i that plan backfired BADLY.

funny how one year can change your life right? i have talked to God and he has told me that to be honest with yourself is the best course of action. i'm not gonna take those posts down because i think that they stand as monuments to change. i only pray that i will keep changing toward a better human being.

Currently Reading Vector Calculus By Jerrold E. Marsden, Anthony J. Tromba see related

you know your losing it when you start getting pissed off at your calculator for "not fucking giving you a straight answer" at 2 in the morning. for real.

if stupidity had a guest invitation list, fifty bucks says i'm on it. fifty bucks says your on it too.

Currently Reading Leviathan (Penguin Classics) By Thomas Hobbes, T. Hobbs, C. B. MacPherson see related

this is me drinking beer and reading philosophy.